I go through waves of Anxiety it seems. And the past week or so it is back with a vengeance. Ironically, it started right around the time I began my new rebif shot last week. However, I don't think it is related to that because I just have so much going on in my life right now.
Current Worries:
- I wonder if I should get the flu shot or not this year as I am just getting over a huge flare up and wonder if that will send me back into another flare.
- Finances are beyond tight since I've not been working since April, but, my health doesn't feel good enough where I can go back to work FT yet.
- I am going to Jamaica next month to get married, but, I am concerned about the travel and heat that I will have to deal with.
- I am getting dizzy and therefore anxious since I started the Rebif. Like REALLY dizzy the following day after I do my shot at night. I have to call MS Lifelines I suppose.
- My future mother in law is making my wedding dress and I'm afraid it won't be as "perfect" as the one I tried on in the store that I loved.
- After going away to Jamaica for my wedding/honeymoon I have to return home and travel to PA to visit with my family for a week - nothing like getting off a plane coming home for a bit and then traveling again - I am tired just thinking about it.
- I am worried about my finances and how we will afford everything coming up.
- I feel like I should be in a totally different state of mind than I am in and feel much better before getting married. I'm not so sure we shouldn't put this off with the current emotional state I am in - as well as MS State - just getting over this flare. Jamaica isn't exactly the healthcare capital of the world should something happen.
- I feel like I should be thrilled to be getting married next month and right now all it feels like is another stress.
- My fiance's job is not super secure and being the only one of us working right now that makes me super nervous.
- I want this dang election to be over with as I am tired of it all at this point.
- The economy scares the crap out of me. As does my future Mother in law who mentioned to me today how "common" it is for parents to move in with their children to save economically...I cannot EVER live with this lady. EVER.
I could go on and on...but you see why I am feeling super anxious lately. I just need life to calm the heck down and be a little more secure. Like right now.
3 comments:
I know all about the anxiety. I'm filled with it right now and I have a three-day weekend. I don't know what to do with myself between the anxiety and depression.
Maybe you should postpone the wedding for now and hold off on all the travel plans. It sounds like you have legit reasons for thinking that way and maybe you need to discuss it with your fiance.
Hope that your flare is receding and you're physically doing better. Rebif can also add to depression and anxiety.
This is all just my unwarranted two cents, though.
Weebs
Hi Lanette. Your post just now came through on my Bloglines reader.
It sounds like there is so much going on right now. And perhaps some of it is increasing the stress in other parts of it.
Here are some thoughts. Rebif could be contributing to the anxiety and perhaps some Xanax or something could help with that. Talk to your doctor.
Although I've never been married, I can understand how anxious and nerve-wrecking it must be to prepare, especially in the final month. I'm hesitant to say - postpone your wedding.
Going to Jamaica, marrying the man you love, enjoying a vacation sounds wonderful for the soul and body right now.
Again, talk to your doctor. Perhaps you could fill a prescription for oral steroids to take with you while your gone. If you think that a flare is creeping up on you, knock it down with some prednisone or decadron. Catch it early and avoid the outrageously high doses.
The stress of the economy, job insecurity, and a mother-in-law who is just 'mentioning' how older parents move in with their children, would make ANYBODY a little on edge.
Mother-in-laws moving in with their daughter-in-laws in probably not such a good idea. Maybe mothers moving in with daughters and son-in -laws would be more doable. Any other children for her to prepare? lol.
I forget what it is that you do as a career. Would it be feasible to work part-time or have a flex-schedule? Just some possibilities to consider (if appropriate).
Now, one more thing before I stop bombarding you with unsolicited opinion.
The thought of spending a week with family and traveling to do it right after a wedding/honeymoon sounds highly unpleasant to me. Is this something which can be altered? Maybe take that same time to settle into your home as a newly-wed couple.
So here are some of my thoughts. I hope that you're remembering to take your vitamins daly, drinking plenty of water, getting regular sleep and a little exercise. All things which help to relieve stress.
Take care there girl, ok?
Lisa
I wonder if the change in seasons is causing all of this anxiety and/or depression that seems to be going around. Like it's the flu or something.
You must be feeling pretty bad right now to be considering putting off your wedding/honeymoon. I hope things start to get better for you real soon.
Take care!
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