Having a disease like MS, with probable disability in your future makes you think about a few things. I spent the first 5 years since my diagnosis and just maintained a blissful ignorance...today I sit in a flare-up that is now in week 8 and I still am weak, can't walk well etc... Lesson Learned.
However, upon all this it is making me thing about what I really want to do in life. What do I want to see, where do I want to go, what do I want to do...what does my future hold. How can I overcome fears and just live? I want to hold my soon to be hubby's hand while watching the sunrise over the ocean. I want to sit under the stars with him at a campfire on a beach. I want to see Europe and experience other cultures. Maybe learn a language. Go back to school. Most of all I want to feel like a contributing member of society again. I have been off work since April, mostly due to cognitive issues and stress effecting my MS. However, now I'm done...being bored, feeling holed up in my home. I need overcome these obstacles thrown at me and rise above.
It's time...I'm about to get to it. Kinda hard to say when I can barely walk or do anything requiring great energy, however, this week...this week I will incorporate something exciting and new. I hope you do as well.
2 comments:
Do it, Lanette. Find something that isn't too physically demanding and try to get out. It stinks being laid up with MS, and any venture out into the world is a victory. I know I'm a big cornball, but I do know how important it is to have goals and dreams despite MS. It keeps a person in the game.
Let us know what your new adventure turns out to be. Here's hoping your MS subsides a bit....
Jen
Yay! I love adventures. Can't wait to hear about yours.
S.
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