It's been 1 year since I quit my job due to increased fatigue. Not increased enough to warrant not going back to work PT. Which I would love to do. However, I don't know what I want to do. I do not want to go back to a corporate job. I want something that would inspire me to want to get out of bed in the mornings. A friend recommended working at a flower shop, well, you don't see many of those around anymore do you? Not when you can order flowers online to be delivered directly from nurseries (proflowers.com for example).
I also need to loose some weight and yet, I lazily don't do much other than walk the dogs like 1 mile a day. And sitting on the computer during the day isn't exactly about moving. But, usually after that 1 mile my legs are done...at least for a few hours. I really need to see about getting social security however, I'm not sure my Neuro would support that decision, he seems to think I am better than I am regarding symptoms.
And my husband always has me arrange everything since I am not working and it is just overwhelming. Thinking about doing bills, appointments, grooming the dogs, arranging vacation plans etc... I blame the MS for the feeling of being overwhelmed by something that the "old" me 6+ years ago would just deal with in like 1 day. Now, I just get stressed. I've cared for my family so long and handled everything growing up that I now need someone to care for me. MS or not. Does anyone else feel they cannot handle Stress as much as they could before their MS?
Okay...well, I'm going to go and try to sleep, maybe inspiration will strike me tomorrow.
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Oh, this all sounds so familiar. Yes, lack of inspiring work (some but not nearly enough), the desire for SSDI and also the need to have a neuro validate it, having to do all the "home stuff" and wondering when I became some house frau.
I still get stressed from lack of money. I think this is my biggest stressor right now. My health has been stable now for a year and I do have a little bit of paid/volunteer work, but I'm constantly trying to find that final piece of the puzzle that will max out my income under disability, so that I'll have a very good PT income (or a kind of ho-hum FT income.)
Stress = money (or lack thereof)
PS: I am still following you, but I have chosen the anonymous option for everyone. Just like to freak all my buddies out..LOL...And the word verification below is "Fabio."
G'night!...
Yes,as Jen said this is all too familiar. I also stopped working due to fatigue, and my plans for my "retirement" didn't work because I forgot the reason that I had to stop working: FATIGUE. What a dunce I can be. (But Jen still loves me... giggle)
So I found myself wondering what to do. Is this what the rest of my life is going to be like? Gahhhhh! I started working with a Life Coach free of charge from MSAA and she's great to talk to. She's helping me cope with this change by reminding me that 1) this feeling is common; 2) I need to be patient with myself and let my next phase unfold in its time; 3) I need to celebrate my small successes and stop beating myself up for being overwhelmed by life sometimes; and 4) crap - I just forgot the fourth thing. I am now finding meaning in smaller ways, but some days that just doesn't seem good enough. I am a "high ideas" person but don't have an outlet for my ideas. None of them will pay me a salary, anyway.
Am I rambling?? Sorry. Nice chatting with you Lanette! PS Say HI to Diane (giggle)...
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